How could you...?
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Early morning, woke up later than usual. Same old breakfast again.
In school, received this sms : "Hi your Guitar exam is in 13 august. Pls do practice hard. Based on your current standard u will fail. Lishwen pls help inform your mother." After looking through it, was really disheartened. For the whole day tried to get someone to listen me but failed. Nothing much happened during the lessons. History was boring as expected. Tried to finsh the book i borrowed from library yesterday during the two periods.
After school, went to NCC meeting, didn't discussed anything today. Just took attendance and you're free. Wanted to look for Dania for lunch and for a listening ear, but didn't knew how to approach her. Eventually followed Edmon to outside staff room. He then started to did some sort of test and he told me to help him, well if he doesn't mind if he fails, then to heck with it. After that, went to 1A classroom to look for Cheng Ting, then walked passed the Dania, Yeda and Jannat. She said hello and i just stared at her for a few seconds, didn't know why, maybe i wanted to mess with her. In the classroom, i copied about two pages of chinese stuff for Cheng Ting even though i wasn't in the same class as him.
Later, i went back up staff room level and i saw something which broke my heart. The Dania put her arm around Yeda and released. I considered it as a hug. The first one i gave her was in this manner... I pretended to see nothing and couldn't find Edmon. Eventually, i was in the library. Cheng Ting need to do something about poems. The Dania, Yeda, Jannat and Joey came in. The time inside the library was uneventful.
After leaving school with the Dania, Yeda, Jannat, Joey, Edmon, Cheng Ting. They talked about where to go for lunch and Edmon talked about my whole family. Wonderful talk about my mother, my father, my sister, my brother, my grandmother and so on. At the traffic light near limbang, we splitted ways and Edmon, Yeda and Dania want to go to lot one and Jannat and Joey walked home or something. Cheng Ting kept on telling me to go to limbang for vegetarian food but eventually decided on Yew Tee Point. We went to wait for bus and they were across the road. I keep crossing the road, acting as if i was trying to take photo/video about them. Actually, everytime i crossed the road, my opinion changed. I wonder if i should go with her or just forget about everything. In the end, both bus for both side came and i decided to go with Cheng Ting.
The lunch with Cheng Ting at the Yew Tee Point was uneventful and after that i went home. In the night, my sister came back. She kept scolding at me for not practising my guitar all those crap and my mother went on with her, to sum up everything. What i felt was a times infinity. Left with the literature newsarticle and chinese newspaper cutting. That's all for today,
Still heartbroken.
